♥ Saturday, November 08, 2008
I can't sleep for chickens. My nose is kinda blocked. Rawr. Sucks.
Last night I had 2 nightmares. Horrible horrible ones. I woke up shivering and not daring to move. Seriously.. I dreamt about people dying. WTH! 2 dreams somemore. The second one had bloody stuff. Gross. Bad omen, as you can tell.
Hmm. The release of results today. Sucky day. Denise, Donna, Eric and Gareth. T33 will not be T33 without them. Especially Denise and Donna. Loud queen and sleeping queen. Eric and Gareth, Cabal King and pon PE king.
Went out after that. Denise kept saying its our last time going out together etc. Make me feel like crying only.. Lunched at KFC. But reuben had to leave for a movie with his friends. Bowling at Marina Square. Homed with Changyi.
Lonely journey home from tonight onwards.Ok.. Evening onwards. Everything just screwed up lah. Parents (who were supposedly not talking cause they quarelled) made me go out for dinner. Then they weren't talking! The atmosphere is friggin weird and tense. Sighs. Then all the drama happened. Blah blah blah.
&&& I'm so used to saving my texts for
you that I don't know what to do with my 500 free messages now. I'm so lost, so empty. :(
If I ever regret. I will hate myself to the brim.Anyway, I hope Pok, Denise, Donna all decides to retain. If not Debbie will be so sad. So will Grace and I. God, please bless them.
& bless him.
I miss you too.
I miss your warmth.
I miss your smell.
I miss your voice.
I miss your texts.
I miss your wishes in the morning/night.
I miss your friendliness.
I miss people teasing me about you.
I miss talking to you.
I miss laughing with/at you.
I miss teasing you.
I miss playing that put "ok" sign on hip-box if you look game.
I miss drinking from your water bottle.
I miss complaining about my day to you.
I miss you sending me home.
I miss lying on your shoulder.
I miss hearing you talk about your 'homies'.
I miss hearing you play the guitar.
I miss you giving me links to youtube videos.
I miss getting angry at you.
I miss you&you&you.
But I shall not and must not regret.
Here's what Debbie told me..
One thing that people always tell you when you're down, is to move on.But moving on takes alot of courage.When someone says move on, the first thing that comes to my mind is acknowledgment.It is the first step of starting anew, when you acknowledge the problem, you face it, and when you eventually face it, you realize that you've got to move on.But many of us, don't want to because you want to cling onto the past and let the past live in the present.It was only due to this unfortunate event that we saw all the happy ones.Imagine if every minute is bliss, you won't even understand pain.There aren't negative sad moments to remind you about the happy times.Memories have a certain value, that you keep close to your heart, and that is what is so special about it.You only remember what you've lost when you've lost it.With this,I'm going to move on and live on a phrase,It was good while it lasted.So well, it was good while it lasted.5 months, 21 days. Thank you for everything,
Reuben Lim. (:
You were the best part of my life until now. <3
PS: You still owe me a song & Ramen-Ramen. & you haven't brought me to KAP. :p
Don't forget me alrights, because I wouldn't.
Penned down her thoughts at 3:31 AM
