countdown: 6 more days to prelims. sighs..
and i can't believe that i slept at 5.30am on sat night/sun morning. LOL. i was readying harry potter and lost track of time. haha. woke up at 11.42 on sunday. haha. then had lunch and took a train to tuition as dad wasn't free.. met shanjie and the station. she tapped my shoulder. haha. and it's the 1st time we officially talked.. haha. like introduce and stuffs. i really find her very nice. haha. it was raining so we kinda got drenched. LOL. and chuanjing was early. 10mins? haha. was supposed to let her try this 99% super bitter choc but she had to meet ms tan after lessons so too bad. after tuition adam and family came to fetch me.. haha. then went to fetch adelene tan at habour and then went to clementi to meet dad mum ah ma and ah gong for dinner. after dinner adelene and adam came to my house to watch the manchester derby.. and dammit.. united lost 1-0 to city. it's united's worst start since 15years ago.. draw draw lose.. sighs. and hargreaves and nani are not contributing. haha. can see scholes, ferdinand, giggs and carrick angry with them! lol. the last 20mins giggs and scholes decided to do it themselves! dont pass to them. tevez also not that good lor! its just that at west ham he stands out because the ppl beside him are not so good players. haha. or maybe cause he doesn't have pre-season training. haha. ok.. so after they left i did maths then slept..
i wanted to pon school today.. but you know how it goes.. later my parents @#$%^&*.. haha. so better not. double chinese free period. double physics sat with clas!! yayys! then i never go for ss as i had dental and clas was so nice to accompany me to the back gate bus stop. she's so sweet! haha. THANKS CLAS!! muackxx! haha.. oh! i got a freaking cut during chinese on my finger. dammit lah. dont know who's the stupid person who cut the table plastic cover! tsk.. my finger bled lahs.. it was that bad but hurt like hell man.. when i bathed it was HORRIBLE. haha. but now it's safely wrapped in a plaster. :D so went to dentist.. wasn't that bad lah.. haha. after that walked home. and ate maggie mee. no dinner tonight! -sighs- nvm.. i shall be on a diet. but i think i'm light enough alr leh! haha. sighs. going off to mourn about united losing! hai hai hai.

here's two mtvs which i'm now totally hooked on.. lol.
press click to stop the background music. haha.

Jenny by Click Five.. Look out for Kyle Patrick.. The lead singer. He's really cute! haha. And he's only 20! LOL.


When Your Gone by Avril Lavigne.. This one's really sad. I kinda cried when I watched this the first time.. haha..

finally cleared my el orals. haha. was super nervous.. but overall it was ok. i think i did ok. but... i said "lah".. hai..i got the food one. haha. well.. wednesday was supposed to have chem mock.. but postponed. so i got shirley to stay back to study with me. went to audi to study.. as my juniors had dance so went to watch them.. haha.. then i was supposed to be studying chem for the mock but mdm selvi wanted me to help.. so there goes.. thursday had mock.. it was ok lah. haha. last year's o level's.. haha.. friday was supposed to go home one.. but at the bus stop i called cheryl and she said she's staying back so i stayed back with the juniors lor.. nisa vinus tianhui and cheryl. hung out awhile.. till 4.30. vinus waited with me! so sweet. thanks VINOO. haha. then went to parkway for dinner.. today woke up at 1.10.. then did maths. went to tiong for dinner then took a train to raffles place to meet my godma to see the fireworks. went to her office.. One Coller Quay.. haha. 36 floor. the view from there is quite good. somemore its air-conditioned. haha. got food somemore. tarts.. brownies.. etc.. i took a packet of m&ms.. haha. so the fireworks were from china.. it's er.... very... RED. lol. alot of those that shoot out from the water.. like fountains. not fantastic. spore's still better. but last year's brazil one was good. haha. met isabelle's mom. she worked there too! lol. then walked home. yeah.. thats about it.. i'm suddenly liking click five alot.. because of their new lead.. kyle patrick.. he's so cute. haha. and his vocals are fantabulous too! haha.
here's a very good song lyrics. sighs.. i hope you're reading this. :D
我知道故事不会太曲折
我总会遇见一个什么人
陪我过没有了她的人生
成家立业之类的等等

她做了她觉得对的选择
我只好祝福她真的对了
爱不到我最想要爱的人
谁还能要我怎样呢

我爱的人 不是我的爱人
她心里每一寸 都属於另一个人
她真幸福 幸福得真残忍
让我又爱又恨 她的爱怎么那么深

我的爱人 她已有了爱人
从他们的眼神 说明了我不可能
每当听见 她或他说「我们」
就像听见爱情 永恆的嘲笑声

finally got back my chinese o's results.. sighs.. i feel so sad now that there's no more chinese lessons in stc.. leetingting and her boring lessons and all.. hai.. but oh wells. haha. i heard that there's still 1 more year in jc for chinese. so.. yeah. well. i slept at 1.30 last night. was up watching united's first premiership match.. it was against reading.. united was in top form.. however due to rooney suffering an injury on half time and was substituted by the not-so-good nani.. united only managed a 0-0 draw. sighs.. reading's keeper was fabulous! he did 22 saves. lol. van der sar was like.. an audience! didn't have to do ANYTHING. reading only managed 2 shots on goal. LOL. and krypton was sent off after 37 secs when he substituted kevin doyle (another hottie).. haha. tried to tackle evra. tsk.. but rooney being substituted was a huge blow.. there weren't any experienced forwards in sir alex's lineup last night.. best they could do was.. bring ronny up front with giggs and give nani his desired right wing.. hai.. so sad. and sir alex actually got fletcher on for silvestre who was tops! like.. UGH.. bring on pique or something. fletcher cant play lahs. yeah.. so anyway. just got the news that wayne would be out for 2 MONTHS!!! -drops dead- that'll be till oct.. and thats when my sports channels would be cancelled so that means i cant see wayne on tv ANYMORE!!! dammit. and steve mclaren would have to worry now.. his top goalscorer gone.. they are so doomed for euro 2008 qualifiers. haha. well. smith's not THAT bad too.. but basically.. he's still not good enough.. well.. there's still owen. hehe. michael owen i guess.. hargreaves does midfield!! LOL. ok. whatever.. el orals tomorrow. have to tuck in early..
hope my throat would improve tomorrow. my throat's condition turned for the worst this afternoon when dolly and i screamed upon knowing our chinese results. haha. it's been in a horrible state. it was totally recovering this morning alr.. but oh wells. haha. then cheryl came over to my place today.. was supposed to study but we were kinda talking.. LOL. and she has papers tomorrow. science and something else.. haha.. yeah.. i still cant believe chinese o's are OVER. lol.

it's sunday night again. sighs.. going back to school tomorrow. boo! i really think that we should start lessons at say.. 10? haha. then cam sleep longer. hehe.
woke up super early on saturday. well. for me it is. 10.50am. haha. dad woke me up to bring me to the docs. lol. and because the last time i went to consult this doctor was in year 2000 and i personally like this doctor amongst all others as he was my family doctor so i woke up early! haha. his clinic is at orchard.. weird name.. island group clinic. LOL. yeah. so went to see him.. he's still as nice and funny and outspoken.. and well. compared to all those bald-headed and old doctors, he considered handsome. lol. he give out a certain kinda aura. lol. waited for close to one and a half hour mind you. it was hella boring. i should have brought a book or something. hai. so i had the normal flu, cough and sore throat. no fever though.. heng. then he kinda asked if i wanna take my height so i'm like.. fine. and guess what! my height was 157!!! in school i was only 152.5. my weight was 43.1. goodness. i lost weight! YAHOO!! -dances around with pom poms- haha. thats cause i was kinda on diet. i skipped a few meals the week before national day. haha. after that went to get sashimi to eat. haha.. came home too medicine and zzzzzz... LOL. then woke up and went to ahma house for dinner. then was sms-ing cheryl.. i seriously think my phone bill will shoot up this month lah. i've been sms-ing ALOT nowadays.. and it's all to ppl not of my age. haha. cheryl.. tianhui.. mitzi.. and all. they're either 2 years younger or 2 years older.. haha. today woke up earlyi dont know for what! mum just woke me up happily.. hai.. it was 11.. sighs. then had lunch.. studied chem.. and well. went to get a pair of brikenstock!! cheers! it's so nice! LOL. yayys! then later went for tuition. tuition was totally focused on orals today lah.. aiyo.. haha. yeah. then came home.. surfed net.. haha. oh! i got a new football channel! it's super cool! like all the epl are on that channel! uber fabulous!! lol. yupps. united vs reading later.. yeah.. oh.. the new lead singer for click five is soo cute! lol. his vocals are good too. check out their new song jenny! LOL. it's nice k! he's the one in the middle http://www.theclickfive.com/ haha.. yupps. so got to go. :D

i think i'm really slacking like siao.. never study for yet another day. went out with clarice today to get graduation dress for phototaking but couldn't find a suitable one.. so splurged my $$ on harry potter and the half-blood prince. yeah.. came home and was reading goblet of fire.. then went out for dinner. came home and surf net. i'm having a freaking sore throat now. dammit mans. orals are on monday.. o level orals some more.. i was having a slight fever this afternoon but did not tell my parents.. later they make it like such a big matter.. so better not. haha. i'm eating strepsils and drinking water like theres no tomorrow. really pray that my throat will heal. my fever's gone but i'm having REALLY BAD flu. i sneeze every 20 secs. lol. and thats making my throat even worst. oh man. pity me lah god! -sighs- going to study chemistry! :D

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!!!
haha.. ok. it's 9th august! national day! happy birthday singapore! haha. i think i'm quite patriotic.. those who came to my house before would know. lol. i have a s'pore flag on my study desk, beside my comp. is the NDP they give one. then my computer cursor is the s'pore flag.. then my hp ringtone is the national anthem. i keep getting my mum to hang the flag outside the window, but she just refuses to! humph. i'm wearing a red shirt now! haha. my man united jersey. LOL. i didn't even studied today.. hai. tried to.. but how to study if my mind is only thinking of... ... -sighs- i'm totally being tormented by thoughts of... ... anyway today i was just changing my blogskin and retrieving all my songs. yeah.. haha.. thats my fascinating day.. i just went to ahma house to watch fireworks. godma was in her office working.. and she said she could see EVERYTHING. humph. she said she it didn't occur to her to call me.. haha. after working she went to the field opposite the oriental to watch the fireworks. but she promised me on 17aug she'd take me there! yayys! thanks godma! LOL. got to go now.. anyway.. the new song on the blog is called innocence by avril lavigne! i love it. LOL.

Waking up i see that everything is ok
The first time in my life and now it's so great
Slowing down i look around and i am so amazed
I think about the little things that make life great

I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

This innocence is brilliant
I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect
Please don't go away
I need you now
And i'll hold on to it
Don't you let it pass you by

I found a place so safe, not a single tear
The first time in my life and now it's so clear
Feel calm, i belong, i'm so happy here
It's so strong and now i let myself be sincere

I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

This innocence is brilliant
I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect
Please don't go away
I need you now
And i'll hold on to it
Don't you let it pass you by

It's a state of bliss, you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
It's a state of bliss, you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry

It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
This innocence is brilliant
Makes you wanna cry
This innocence is brilliant
Please don't go away
Cause i need you now
And i'll hold on to it
Don't you let it pass you by

This innocence is brilliant
I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect
Please don't go away
I need you now
And i'll hold on to it
Don't you let it pass you by

had NDP celebrations today.. super boring. went to school as juniors wanted to hang out.. had my el prelims on monday. the paper was alright but the vocab for paper 2 and the letter for paper 1 was hell difficult. shit lah.. but i'd probably pass.. i have to pass. sighs. ss prelims on tuesday. i totally hadn't expected populations to come out! and i totally never concentrate on that but i still did. i concentrated on the 21st century challenges and the chap7 and housing. 21st century one came out and housing one too. but i didnt understand the qns so didn't take the risk. some grooming talk after school. then stayed back with cheryl. then went to tiong to get red shirt for today. wore the red shirt today.. then had some stupid concert.. about frong prince and stuff. like "hello! we're not sec 1s" so boring.. so was msg-ing during the concert. msged mitzi.. clarice.. and clarice totally didn't reply me cause she was just sitting diagonally opp me! lol. i know i'm damn lame. i didn't know jc had concerts too. bleahx.. thought this would be the last time. -sighs- oh! and alot of ppl didn't come today. clas didn't come. but well. we kinda had fun.. singing the national anthem damn loudly for only 1 time in the whole year and all. after that went to tiong with juniors.. ate mos burger then went home. came home watched 13 going on 30 then slept! haha. took some pics.. here they are..














sigh.. i can't get myself to feel happy these days. i really don't think its the stress. on the contrary, i dont feel stressed.. i feel horrid.. it's like you want something damn badly but you know it's kinda impossible to get it but you really really want it. whenever i think of it i feel like crying. cant it just belong to me.? why must it be... ... ... -sighs- nobody realizes my unhappiness probably cause i'm trying hard to be happy.. to be contented that at least.. i know that its happy. i've told cheryl.. she doesn't seemed fazed about it. but thats cause she doesn't understand. -sighs- i wanted to tell jojo.. but i'm afraid because she knows... hai.. if i knew this would happen, i shouldn't have agreed in the first place. but if i didn't agree in the first place i would have realised how fun it was and i probably wouldn't be able to see it anymore.. although there was a promise but seeing how times changes so quickly, i doubt the promise would even be kept.i really hope that 10 years, 20 years or even 30 years down the road.. you would still remember me. cause i know i would.

i'm watching F1 now as i'm blogging. haha. lewis 1st, kimi 2nd. yay! hope kimi wins! wahaha. jenson button's car just died. orh.. so sad. lol. so happy now! lol. kimi's finally going back onto the podium if nothing happens for the las 33 laps! lol. ok.. today was so UNPRODUCTIVE.. lol. was supposed to be studying intensively as tomorrow's el prelims.. woke up at 10 this morning.. then bathed and went out.. went to meet koh mitzi at jurong east.. we were supposed to study at the library lah. haha. yeah. so dad fetched me to the mrt station then i took the train to jurong east. that stupid mitzi was late lah! tsk. make me wait. i thought "gentleman" ain't supposed to make ladies wait. tsk. haha. so anyway i waited and then she suddenly appeared.. and i totally didn't realize that she was here lah. i looked up and then i saw this green shirt person walking over and i was like.. "mitzi??" ok. her hair was so... different. it's kinda mushroom like now.. but makes her look like a small girl.. cute cute one.. haha. not "cute" cute but like small girl cute.. haha. after that.. as she wanted to get sweets we went to NTUC to get. how old alr still eat sweets! haiyo. after getting the sweets we went to the library. supposed to study, but we were talking. haha. and she doesn't know how to do integration question. -sigh- she was studying physics.. looks kinda chim. haha. then we decided to go for lunch at around 2.. so we went to eat macdonalds. she has a SUPER weird diet. she ate mcchicken without veggies and cause the bread was burnt, she didn't eat the bread as well.. then she upsized and guess what man! she never really drank her drinks and was complaining that the fries were too salty. oh man.. weird senior i have there. after that we went to NTUC again all cause mitzi wanted to get seaweed.. and she doesn't know the brand. urgh. HOPELESS. lol. and then i saw melissa. haha. oh man. dont think wrongly mans.. after that we went back to the library to study, intensive.. then our place were taken so we had no choice but found a place beside the toilet.. so we sort of studied for 5 mins! then our attention diverted again. haha. we talked lah.. and then mitzi opened the new sweet and then she kept throwing this transparent plastic at me. damn. so i tried to stuff it into her shirt/pants! LOL. but wasn't successful. oh! and she's balding.. to mitzi: you're balding alrights. admit it! don't come and tell me it's some spiral thing. LOL. :p being bored, we pranked jojo. lol. then mitzi diverted her call to pizza hut so that if jojo calls back, she calls pizza hut. but sadly she didn't haha. then mitzi saw her friend. haha. whoever.. we were talking about F1. haha. we're going to watch the spore GP next year together! lol. i finally got someone to go with me! :D yeah.. then after "studying", we decided to leave. we walked to the mrt station. and then mitzi got on the wrong side of the platform and then her train came! lol. too bad mans.. but her stop is only 1 or 2 stops.. so chill mans. haha. then i took the train home then walked home.. reached home at 6.. then called jojo to talk, ate dinner then now watching F1.. now there's 21 laps left! GO KIMI! :D

Yay! it's saturday today.. haha. just went to monsoon to get a haircut. wahaha. it's quite nice.. but if i tie it up it looks all screwed. haha. need pins. i woke up at 10 this morning thanks to someone's msg.. haha. woke me up early in the morning.. tsk. but i still want to say thanks to her. haha. for waking me up early so i can study. finished ss chap 7, bk 3 and chap1-4, bk 4.. not doing chap 5. bk 4. haha. then ate lunch and then i went to cut hair.
headed straight home on monday. haha. nothing to do in school what. tuesday also came home straight cause i had tuition. chem tuition about practical. then wednesday had physics prac. it was OK lah.. easier than expected. i was actually dreading the principle of moments question to come out, however, it was kinda easy. haha. then the optical pins one. i did 4 extra readings. they said 5 readings.. and i went to do 9. LOL. blur me. after practicals i went for dance only to find out we had performance on friday. oh mans. it was bad lah. the 3r girls are not dancing so our placings all change. so difficult can.. so we practiced till 5.45 and there was the night study so we had to leave.. i went for night study with yj, dolly and shirley. we were at the canteen and all. haha. it wasn't productive lah. shirley kept talking crap and make us laugh. tsk! only when dolly and shirley left did we have peace. haha. thursday had chem prac. oh mans.. the titration was ok. but the QA testing for gas was all wrong. ok.. not all. half. 1st gas was CO2.. i got it. 2nd one was also CO2.. but i wrote NH3.. lol. i tried to test for CO2.. but as the test tube was hot after heating, i kept accidentally pour the CO2 into the heated solid.. and finally i had no more solid left to heat.. so i just wrote ammonia. but it's wrong lah. tsk.
yesterday had the mission thing. we had 2 periods of lessons then went to audi. i left at 12.30 and went to housecraft room. got ready and went to perform. SCREWED PIECE OF SHIT MANS! starting music was too soft so we missed our poses. bhavani's zip came out.. so she had to leave halfway.. we clashed into each other during the circle because of some people who doesn't know how to use their brain and continued moving. and she claims that she can do hip hop.. oh man. PUR-LEESE. after that had to go back to the mission as our classes were all locked so couldn't get our things. haha. yupps. thats about it. oh! took a bus home with yingying yesterday.. took some photos.. shall post them. :D