boring day today. exam homeroom sucks lah.. so dusty. got clas, sand, laura, ms tham(chem teacher) sneezing.. i was also sneezing for the first 10mins then it stopped. -sighs- luckily our papers are in the hall.. came home straight for chem tuition. tomorrow cheryl and tianhui's accompanying me before night study starts. :D i'm quite depressed nowadays.. hai. perhaps due to stress some might say.. but. i think it's not that.. it's something else that no one knows.. only me. -sigh- i just want to say that i am missing this person really badly suddenly.. it's like really sudden. the person just keeps coming into my mind these few nights.. i haven't realized how much i miss this person for the past 2 years till now.. hai. it's been long... hope this person remembers me. :) Here's a really nice lyric.. kinda describes my mood now..

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
While you're far away dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure

Dont want to close my eyes
I dont want to fall asleep
Cause Id miss you baby
And I dont want to miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you baby
And I dont want to miss a thing

Lying close to you feeling your heart beating
And Im wondering what you're dreaming
Wondering if its me you're seeing
Then I kiss your eyes
And thank God we're together
I just want to stay with you in this moment forever
Forever and ever

Dont want to close my eyes
I dont want to fall asleep
Cause Id miss you baby
And I dont want to miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you baby
And I dont want to miss a thing

I dont want to miss one smile
I dont want to miss one kiss
I just want to be with you
Right here with you, just like this
I just want to hold you close
Feel your heart so close to mine
And just stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time

Dont want to close my eyes
I dont want to fall asleep
Cause I'd miss you baby
And I dont want to miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you baby
And I dont want to miss a thing

Dont want to close my eyes
I dont want to fall asleep
I dont want to miss a thing

had a fairly eventful day.. i'm having a freaking headache now. geez.. had night study.. did maths lor. what else can i do?? lol. yesterday was the same as any school day.. DUH. i mean.. what interesting stuffs can there be in my life now that o levels are coming up.. sighs.. i've somehow gotten over raikkonen losing.. but.. i totally and clueless that raikkonen is married! like.. OMG. my fantasy.. hai.. he's married to miss scandinavian or something.. she's not very pretty though.. haha.
since i've got nothing to blog about i'm going to block about this person whom i hate most now.. i'm serious.. she's like the person whom i hate most currently.. well. i can't say her name here.. but i can describe her.. she's kinda short and ugly. lol. dark.. and well.. nothing prominent. just.. i can't stand her.. this person here is really self-centered, selfish and she makes use of people. she doesn't care about others feelings. she hurt my feelings too many times that this final blow is too much.. she's like.. a top notch b**ch.. i most of her friends all dislike her.. from what i've gathered.. her clique even talks bad about her behind her back.. her good friend is actually complaining about her to ME?! lol. and i think everyone knows i can't stand her. i've made it realy clear.. her once good friends now find her irritating.. only this other person whom i know can stand her and this other person's personality is also like hers.. so they're a perfect match.. i mean she's damn evil.. she thinks she's so pretty and all.. people say others pretty she get jealous.. like.. my friend was like.. "val, you're very pretty" i mean.. i bet she's just bootlicking me.. i know i'm not pretty lah.. tsk.. but then.. that person was like.. please lor.. she's like not pretty lah.. she's like a bimbo/b**ch or something behind my back.. like please.. you think i don't have true friends is it?? you think the person you told really is your friend?? think again mans.. i think she's more of my friend than your friend lah.. a***ole.. boo! what a failure she is.. pity her mans.. when i told hum about her, hum was like.. whoah.. she's dam pitiful leh.. but i told her to think twice man! this kind of people are not deserving of our pity. so what if you got into... ... i bet the guys would be scared away by you lah.. LOL. ________ agrees with me too. LOL. see. you've lost.. who ask you to want to fight with me in the first place, BITCH. :D i'm going to wait and see what happens in the end.. but well. on account of us being close friends before.. i still want to tell you that.. i liked you as a friend once and.. i also tried to give you another chance.. but i can't.. :)

DAMN.. MASSA LOST TO FERNANDO.. ferrari are 27 points behind mcLaren and kimi's 18 points behind race leader lewis hamilton and 6 points behind massa. damn.. ferrari could have close the gap lah! DAMN. stupid hydraulic thing. PISSED TO THE POWER OF 1 MILLION.

damn fucking depressed now.. dammit. kimi just retired from the european GP.. due to some gearbox prob. hai.. he's at 3rd position ok.. he started on pole position then it started raining and he didn't get into the pits to change to wet weather tyres.. so lost a large amount of time there.. then it was like.. 6 cars all came crashing at the same turn.. including lewis hamilton and nick heidfeld.. so there was a restart. kimi's on grid 7.. massa on grid 2.. then massa overtook some guy on his debut race in the spyker ferrari and became first.. alonso 2nd and kimi 6th.. then overtake overtake.. kimi finally became 3rd. then he started closing up on alonso. but on lap 30 something i think.. some hydraulic thingy went wrong.. the whole car slowed down and he was like.. crawling back to pit lanes.. and was forced to retreat.. DAMN SAD.. hai.. and then i never watch alr.. heck care about the final score.. who cares man.. lewis started on grid 17 and that's the last.. after 5 drivers retreated.. hai.. let's hope massa can win.. and something crops up on fernando's car.. hai hai hai.. so pissed now. no mood to do anything except vent my anger.. hai.. hai.. now kimi's dropped to 4th position AGAIN.. thought he safely overtook massa alr.. DAMN. well.. ok went for tuition early this morning. only me alone. then came home had lunch.. did some work then slept.. had dinner and watched the stupid, depressing race.. yesterday went for dinner at NUS.. ate till stomach was bloated. whole afternoon just slacked. morning woke up at 7.12 and was like.. harry potter's out! but went back to sleep again.. went to collect at around 11 something. bought 6th target by james patterson. friday went to school as usual.. had night study and all.. yeah.. no mood to type anymore. going to.... i don't know.. find someone to kill.. just joking. going to practice maths.. bye. and.. I LOVE KIMI NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS.. <3

thursday! countdown to sat! lalala..wednesday had normal boring lessons.. PE did softball! haha. so fun! PC had the sexuality talk again. during the talk clas and i were talking about gay and stuff when mr ng came to tap my shoulder and said that both of us must meet him after the talk! whoah! we were like.. DIE! lol. so we met him.. and he asked if we wanted to help out in the japan exchange prog.. for the NE trail.. so ok lor. we agreed. think of the testi man! haha. then night study.. vinus and tianhui gave me letters! so sweet of them. haha. cheryl DIDN'T! humph.i did physics notes during night study. haha. 3 chaps. i slept quite early last night. damn tired mah. today reached school quite late. haha. so never help cheryl tie her hair but she did pass me a letter. lol. replied vinus's letter.. then double chem.. did QA. double EL.. did tianhui's letter. mr ng was droning on and on about summary skills which he had alr told us god knows how many times during lessons.. did maths too! then after lesson he lent me his harry potter bk 2! whoah. i told him i only wanted after prelims but he's like tempting me lah.. so.. i alr read 3 chaps! haha. then staryed back for charles barton thing. he's damn funny! haha. lol. after that went home.. read the book and now.. blogging. haha. got to go for dinner. ciaoz!

tuesday alr! haha. busy week ahead. monday i had cl listening compre. got ans. from chuanjing and i got all correct. jojo said it sould be a reliable source. lol. in the morning went to find cheryl and tianhui.. cheryl's hair was so screwed.. helped her tie. haha. she had e-learning.. but she came to school to do. lame girl lah. lol. borrowed harry potter 1st bk from mr ng. very nice! lol. after listening headed home straight to read the book. it's super nice. haha. at around 8.. pestered mom to take me to popular to order HP and deathly hallows. so went to tiong's and ordered. was on discount. usual price: 53.95. i bought for 48.05. lol. had this lucky draw thing.. and i won like a 5 bucks popular voucher. ends on 31 july. like.. er.. then went home.. read the book till 12? haha. never did any studying. tuesday.. today.. schooled.. came home early again as i had tuition. was damn freaking sleepy.. tried to colse my eyes to rest.. but when i was just going to fall asleep..mr teo came. ARGH. cant rest. so i was in a drowsy state for whole lesson. did QA and rate of reaction.. yupps. almost finished reading HP. left 2 chaps. cant wait to read last bk.. here's my predictions, PREDICTIONS ONLY. lol. i think harry potter would die when he and voldermourt battle.. snape would assist potter.. and voldermourt will not die but lose his powers(remember the prophecy in order of phoenix. haha.) thanks so snape.. so maybe snape would be the most powerful wizard.. haha. ya.. that's what i think lah. hai.. well. shall see on sat! can't wait mans! HAHA. yupps. got to go.. read my book! haha. 2 chaps! :D

damn.. it's sunday again. hate sundays. yesterday went to watch harry potter! whee.. woke up at 10.. some idiot prank called me at 2.27 am lah. dammit. i answered and no sound came from the opp. side and it's like.. private. damn that fellow. ok.. what if it's a ghost or whatsoever?! eeyer. -shudders- i woke up and straight away tunred on the comp to check the theatre seatings available for Harry P.. vivo is like.. TOTALLY OCCUPIED except 1st row at the sides. so.. i was contemplating great world and so yvonne and i agreed to go GV grand. i couldn't book through net as i had no credit card.. so i pestered dad to fetch me to GV.. and he agreed. it was like 10.15? haha. so i bought 5.15.. row 5.. seats no. 3 and 4! like.. i have to turn my head to the right and look up before i get a good view.. it's damn pathetic.. so i came home, bathed and met yvonne at vivo.. well. we had lunch at food republic. and oh. my shoes were killing me. i have like 3 blisters on my pinkie toe now. haha. after eating we went to coffeebean to do our work.. and i was like telling yvonne.. remind me when it's 4.. and so.. we embarked on our journey of maths.. LOL. and it was like 4.05 alr.. and both of us didn't know. and then this waiter came to tell us to go away.. and it's like.. hello! just get to the point mans.. he kept saying.. i'm really sorry to tell you this.. etc. like.. ok. but anyhow.. we still are grateful to him for informing us the time. so we went to get donuts.. i got 1/2 a dozen for my family. queued for 45mins? haha. then went to great world.. watched harry potter. the lightings this time are quite bad.. and the scence where harry fights with lord voldermort's quite short. and damn! sirius died! so sucky.. after that took a bus home.. delivered the donuts to ahma house.. but was too late to catch sharon.. they left alr. so we split 2 for adam.. and 2 for nic.. the rest for me. haha. had some sucky porridge for dinner. they never leave any food for me. tsk. adam passed me the united souveniers adelene got for me at OT! THANKS ADELENE. I LOVE YOU! :D she didn't want to collect the $$.. so i am treating her to lunch next sunday.. with her bf and adam tagging along. today woke up at 12.41.. haha. had lunch.. then went for tuition. mum was supposed to order harry potter for me.. the book i meant.. but i had to be present for the student card discount to be able to be used. so.. hai. so.. came home.. had dinner.. done homework.. and here i am now.. oh! great news! mr ng has agreed to lend me his whole series of harry potters!!! -cheers- i'm so thankful.. have been waiting from Ona/Pamela for ages. so.. thanks mr ng! haha. like that i need not buy the rest. :D ok.. so mum promised to take me to bras basah to order the book tomorrow. so.. YAYS! my life is so.. wonderful? haha.. yupps. so.. got to go now. ciaoz!!!

it's friday alr! the days have passed so quickly.. especially nearing the o's.. i totally don't feel any motivation at all! how?! sighs. nothing much really happened this week.. well.. except for the night study stuffs. went for night study on wednesday.. it was SO BORING. trust me.. it's like.. you cant talk at all.. pat ng was like.. you talk and you get sent to the canteen. why is he like that.. sighs. mdm zuraida's better. i was even walking around the place today and she didn't even cared! lol. she's so nice. thursday did chem titration prac.. whee! i totally knew how to do! wahaha. it's very nan de ok! had 2 periods of chem. eng and maths. so sad. eng was fun! lol. shirley kept fooling around! she even cut my belt! humph. and i have to sew it AGAIN. actually.. my mom sewed it! hehe. was supposed to have a geog test on thurs.. but i had tuition. shrugs. went home.. bathed and started eating maggie noodles which my maid cooked.. and when i was halfway through.. mr teo came! like gosh.. and there's abalone inside my noodle somemore! he came 30mins early lah! hai.. but.. oh wells. did marcomolecules and QA for practicals.. haha. then it was already 6.00. my abalone was hard alr! haha. so mum came back with dinner. she told me to take the abalone out.. and she will eat the noodles! like.. ooh.. thanks mum! haha. thats so sweet. so.. i did. not nice to go against your parents wishes. :D hehe. after dinner.. headed to chinatown for facial. so long never go alr.. haha. then came back did hw and slept. today.. clas jorain shirley all not here. i was so lonely. sighs. we had this new female for cme.. like.. ok. er... she's quite.. well.. funny? ok.. actually she isn't.. i just think she's weird. chinese had listening compre.. haiyo! i totally didn't listen.. i was practicing my new signature! hehe. simple and sweet. :D then assembly went to watch the australia students performance. not bad.. haha. clas hosted 2 guys. haha. pity her. the solo singers were good. especially the prettier one! hehe. after that went to vivo with clar yvonne and tracce. bought donuts. had lunch. and we went back to school. had night study.. then daddy came to fetch.. went to tiong bought long john and came home. talked to jojo.. and then! tada. i'm here. now. got to go. CIAOZ!

ps: hey.. if YOU are reading this.. you know where to look. :D
today's monday.. back to school. sighs.. well.. was damn happy last night! woohoo! and why? because KIMI RAIKKONEN won the British GP. it's a great achievement! lol. althought felipe had some engine problems at the start and had to start from pit lane.. he managed to get from 20 to 5! cheers! so ferrari brought back 14 points and so did mcLaren. so.. no diff there.. BUT.. kimi has gone from 4th position to 3rd!!! cheers! yeeha! lol. i'm bonkers. kimi-1st. alonso-2nd. lewis-3rd. :p i slept at 4.30 on sunday morning and woke up at 11.30 to do tuition hw. left the summary. haha. thats why i got a severe headache during tuition. and it was also because of the new guy.. there was cigar smell on him lah.. make me feel nauseous. sigh. he's so whatever. claims that he's shy.. but he laughs at practically everything. i answer wrongly he also laugh.. even chuanjing agrees with me.. haha. been msg-ing her alot lately.. realized that i have used up 250+ sms for 1 week!!! tianhui.. cheryl.. may.. vinus.. chuanjing.. phew. thats alot. i only have 1000 per month.. so must control abit. heh.. but usually i use less than 300? lol. yupps. so went for tuition then came home watched F1.. then went online talked awhile then went to bed at 12.30. woke up early today. don't know why. just told dad to wake me up early. lol. went to school, as usual. had ss test. think i did fairly ok. LOL. 2 periods of mt. 1st period.. jorain and i fooling around in theatrette. like whatever! haha. she keeps tickling me lah! loser! boo! obasan! :D then 2nd period had listening. chem.. boring as usual.. 2 periods phy did practical.. maths.. even more boring. and well. i failed my emaths test.. ok.. so i'm going into depression! LOL. lame. i got 19/40! damn! eng did the compre.. finished early.. ok not that early. 3.15. started early though. haha. then went home. ate cup noodles for lunch. damn pathetic. i ate at 4.30! i cooked myself ok! yay! it's the 2nd time i'm cooking this myself without the help of friends/maid/family members.. hehe. :D thanks, i know! -_-''' yupps.. so now i'm still awfully full. so am eating dinner at 10+? haha. yupps. going to do permutation and combination hmwk. ciaoz!
PS: I'M SO GOING TO KILL THE PERSON WHO INVENTED PERMUTATIONS AND COMBINATIONS! tsk.
pps: i know i said i won't cry.. but i'm sorry. please do not break the promise alrights. see you.. i don't know when.. perhaps never.

just had dinner.. so full. yesterday was a blast! haha. actually.. i'm quite down now. it's probably our last performance. yeah.. so yesterday had lessons.. during cme yingying and i were discussing how to act out our scene. we have to do this play thing. it's a football scene. and since yingying and i are into football.. i'm acting at the player and yingying the keeper. haha. and i'm supposed to dive! tsk. but.. i'm united's player on the left wing! that means i'm ronaldo!!! cheers. haha. we played softball for PE.. boring. during assembly.. we did our emath test! i didn't do the last question. i didn't know how to do! haha. clas and nicole also.. haha. hi-5! LAME. yupps. clas lost her court shoes! tsk. went with her aroud the school to find. in the end still can't find. poor thing. so i called jojo and asked if she could go home to take hers. but.. she was kinda reluctant.. so didn't force her. at last.. luvenia lent clas her mom's. so we got ready in the audi.. all dancers and ELDDS. last time dressing up.. hai. last time putting make-up.. last time wearing jingles.. and probably.. last time opening and closing. hai. i have finally memorized how to say.. its "talang kutakati kutakati terniginatome tahker dimi tahker jenu" haha.. i think it's like that. haha. will never forget it. yupps. so we were waiting and waiting for our turn. weeting and seinyan came to get the tix from me. when guitar came in i was taking pics with clas angeline queenie may and yuetong.. haha. in queenie's phone. then we talked a little.. i was like so extra there when may and yuetong left. all guitar ppl.. so i went to find the jrs.. and we played concentration and 007. then it was time to go!! haha. i wasn't as nervous as indoor stadium night. i just needed to pee quite badly. many others too. shobana.. manyan.. brenda.. debra.. lol. we danced.. i was crying inside.. in my head i was thinking.. it's the last time i'm doing this step in the costume with everyone else. during the finale.. it was really fun! haha. we were all sweating like some weirdos! lol. it was HOT! i couldn't find my parents.. and guess what man! they were sitting behind mrs kong! after the performance. we went back to the audi.. brenda debra shobana and i went to the toilet to pee and take out makeup.. sein yan was once again helping me take out all the pins on my head.. she did it for me on SYF competition day too. yupps. so after that met my parents. then went home. too a LONG, STEAMY bath.. and went to lau pa sat for dinner! hehe. my eyeliner, as usual, couldn't go off. haha. went home.. slept at 12.30.. was too tired. woke up at 1.15pm the next day when jojo called me. haha. then i talked to her for awhile(1hr).. had lunch.. used the comp.. then i slept again at 2.30.. till 6.. then bathed.. and went out for dinner with my uncles. just came back. haha. there's the F1 qualifying race for British GP later.. yupps.. so got to go. :D

haha. ok. i'm back. went out with jr's today. tianhui cheryl and vinus. haha. woke up at 9.. had tuition. chem tuition.. then mr teo released me at 12.30.. it was supposed to be 10-12 lah! haha. but oh wells. was late (DUH) to meet them. hehe. got ready then dad fetched. met them outside subway at habour. then we walked to vivo to buy tickets.. but damn! the queue was LONG. i'm serious. so we were like.. let's go other place to watch. ended up deciding to go to great world. but then we had to have lunch first.. so i was like.. let's eat maggie mee, JOKINGLY.. and then we dismissed the thought.. at last we really couldn't find anything to eat so we really had cup noodles!!! haha. bought 4 same cups (nissin tom yum) and went to behing 7-11 to eat. haha. everyone who walked past were like.. so pitiful.. but are they blind or what! we're like.. looking so rich. haha. 'branded' bags and clothes and all. right... then we went to great world.. watched nancy drews.. it was not bad lah.. haha. after that we decided to go to tiong to take neoprints. so we did. took neos.. then later we all left. dad fetched.. now home.. trying to finish my maths!! hehe. yupps. so got to go. ORALS TOMORROW! bless me! yupps. hehe.

no school tomorrow! yay! youthday. haha. just finished watching F1.. my dear kimi raikkonen won the french GP! yay! his first win since the melbourne one! YAY! both ferrari's on podium. lewis 3rd and alonso.. i dont know! yay! ferrari's catching mclaren! had tuition this afternoon. there's this new guy who joins us. well.. now it's 5 girl and a guy. damn lah. he took MY seat. now cant sit with chuanjing. haha. he's like from china and from private school. no wonder he dyed his hair.. i swear i smelt cigar on him lah. EW. woke up really late this morning. haha. around 1.30? cause i slept late last night. sat.. woke up at 3+!!! lol. mum called to wake me up. then went to see the facial auntie.. then came home.. after that went to chinatown for dinner. yeah. that's about it. hehe. going out with jr's tomorrow. so yupps.