Hurt is an understatement. Seriously.
Damn. Council camp just over-ed. Tiredness. Emoness.
Anyway.. One of the worst days in my life as far as I can remember was Thursday. Freaking sian. During lessons my left eye was twitching like mad and so I asked Debbie what does left eye twitching symbolizes and she was like.. I have no idea. And then Natasha kinda messaged me something which I totally didn't want to know because just that sentence will crush my dream world. :( And so I seeked confirmation but got a very vauge answer. And so I kinda guessed that the answer was not what I desperately wanted to hear. After lessons (ended at 3) I waited in class for nothing.. Colin. Changyi. Naren. Eric. Jityong. 5 guys 1 girl. Congrats to me mans. What the hell lah. All the girls ps-ed me.. Denise and Donna had to go for the CSI thing.. Anyway, we played asshole taitee. And then Changyi, Naren and Colin left. Left Jityong, Eric and me. It then started raining like crazy. Freaking scary. At 5.. Aloysius came to find us to play bridge. -.- Jityong won 8 out of 8. We were teaching him how to play.. Yeah. So it's called beginner's luck you see. :D After that I kinda went out for dinner with someone. In the end.. Never had dinner. Never had lunch. We just went to far east and walked a few rounds sorting things out. It was like.. This super bad and hurtful night for me lah. I was f**king angry and damn sad+hurt. Got on the bus. Emo-ed at my favourite emo-ing spot. At shenton way mum called to tell me Ms Peh (form tutor) called. Totally freaked me out lah. WTH. Reached home. Talked. Blah blah blah.
Council camp.. Sian. Its all proposals all the way. Boring shit. Sat morning woke up at 5.41 just to go for morning exercises. That is crazy. Ran from cjc to around Barker road there. Near mediacorp? And then there's Chanseery lane or something where all the expensive houses are.. And then back. About 1 hour lah. Crazy.. And then there's the finale 'night' thing. Quite ok lah. Not THAT fun. My interview was crazy. First thing they asked.. Have you tried doing the standing broad jump.. Like.. ERM? Haha. After council camp sand came to stayover at my place. We were both worn out so we kinda slept damn early.
Woke up at 10 today. Went for breakfast with sand at bk.. Then met davis to go library to study. Lunched at Toastbox. LOL. wth. Then back to library. Dinnered at Sakae. Then got Dolly's present. Took bus home. He called to talk. I seriously don't want to have anything to do with him. But the promise I made keeps me tied down. But don't worry. I'll continue being your friend because let's just say I want to and not because I have to. So don't worry. And stop asking me weird questions! OMG. Anyway. Reached home. Godma was waiting for me at the gate. Oh did I mention that my whole family's on a holiday in genting so I'm kinda stranded alone at home. Haha. So my godma came over to sleep with me. Yupps. Going to chiong hmwk now.
When life's looking good, everything goes downhill. :(
& how would you expect me to believe you when you just lost my trust by telling me the world's gravest lie?
& does it matter so much to you if I liked you before? At least now it doesn't matter.
& I am the world's greatest fool for making the world's stupidest mistake. Thanks to you.
Friends forever, I promise.
At least it's a memory never to be erased. Thanks alot. :D