had NDP celebrations today.. super boring. went to school as juniors wanted to hang out.. had my el prelims on monday. the paper was alright but the vocab for paper 2 and the letter for paper 1 was hell difficult. shit lah.. but i'd probably pass.. i have to pass. sighs. ss prelims on tuesday. i totally hadn't expected populations to come out! and i totally never concentrate on that but i still did. i concentrated on the 21st century challenges and the chap7 and housing. 21st century one came out and housing one too. but i didnt understand the qns so didn't take the risk. some grooming talk after school. then stayed back with cheryl. then went to tiong to get red shirt for today. wore the red shirt today.. then had some stupid concert.. about frong prince and stuff. like "hello! we're not sec 1s" so boring.. so was msg-ing during the concert. msged mitzi.. clarice.. and clarice totally didn't reply me cause she was just sitting diagonally opp me! lol. i know i'm damn lame. i didn't know jc had concerts too. bleahx.. thought this would be the last time. -sighs- oh! and alot of ppl didn't come today. clas didn't come. but well. we kinda had fun.. singing the national anthem damn loudly for only 1 time in the whole year and all. after that went to tiong with juniors.. ate mos burger then went home. came home watched 13 going on 30 then slept! haha. took some pics.. here they are..














sigh.. i can't get myself to feel happy these days. i really don't think its the stress. on the contrary, i dont feel stressed.. i feel horrid.. it's like you want something damn badly but you know it's kinda impossible to get it but you really really want it. whenever i think of it i feel like crying. cant it just belong to me.? why must it be... ... ... -sighs- nobody realizes my unhappiness probably cause i'm trying hard to be happy.. to be contented that at least.. i know that its happy. i've told cheryl.. she doesn't seemed fazed about it. but thats cause she doesn't understand. -sighs- i wanted to tell jojo.. but i'm afraid because she knows... hai.. if i knew this would happen, i shouldn't have agreed in the first place. but if i didn't agree in the first place i would have realised how fun it was and i probably wouldn't be able to see it anymore.. although there was a promise but seeing how times changes so quickly, i doubt the promise would even be kept.i really hope that 10 years, 20 years or even 30 years down the road.. you would still remember me. cause i know i would.